i don’t even deserve having someone love me. i don’t deserve my son when all i do is push his daddy away at every mistake. that’s really not fair on Regan. i just can’t forgive mark for anything he’s done, when all he does is forgive me. i don’t deserve either of them.
here’s to probably dying a lonely old person because you’ve pushed away every single person that cares. yay :/
im so scared, and alone and its my own fucking fault.
+you think you can lie to me without me finding out, but you forget im a lot more intelligent than you. you should have learnt by now that i always unravel your lies. cunt.
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and i end up feeling guilty.
i actually need an answer; is it wrong of me to not want mark to stay in my flat during the weekend when he’s done nothing but make me unhappy during the week? is it really me stopping him from seeing his son even though ive arranged times for him to see Regan that aren’t in my home?
today mark ‘wasn’t best pleased with me’ for not texting him, baring in mind i have a child to look after and keep entertained, aswell as a flat to keep clean, and shopping and stuff to do. is it wrong for me not to plan and make time to text during the day, when he can’t make the effort to text me before work when he’s doing nothing, (when he’s with this friends is classed as him being too busy)
i just don’t get why im in the wrong.
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